Shared with a few friends about this thought from last week. "Is it a good reason to use a bad word when something bad happens?" Not just when my toast gets burnt to black, or when I forgot to record a nice show. But really bad. Maybe when it seems like erm.. A very dear friend or family is lost, or when oh well, in the case it just seems really really bad.

Can I say it?

Initially, I thought that yea! Why not. After all, I didn't use it loosely. I used it in a time when things were really bad.

But then after some time, I realised that this was just my thinking in a sort of a way when I was looking at the present problems in the small view. It's really so because all I see at the difficult point was just the problem, but I failed to realise the bigger picture.

Ultimately, God is still in control of all things. Who am I to say that those situations are so bad that they are beyond the control of God. I can't think that way. There's nothing beyond He who created all things. So, I believe that even if things seem really bad at the present, it is going to be only temporary.

And thus, I've decided, it would be wrong to use a bad word even if things get really bad in life. It'll all work out eventually. I guess for most of us, as long as we've lived for more than 15-16 years we'd know that..

Here's some of my own examples:
When I was 10 yrs old, I lost my maths workbook. For that age, it was a crisis. But my mom found it after a long search. hee

12 yrs old, got back my PSLE results. I almost went to the normal stream because of my bad results. But made it to BHSS in express stream. After that I even went to the best class by sec4. (Ah wells, but we were a neighbourhood school so there was only 2 express classes. hehe)

13 yrs old, first time I experienced the feeling of being left out. One of my long time friends kind of found new friends so it was then that I felt rather angry about it and almost didn't want to believe in friendship anymore. But it wasn't very long before someone came into my life and started to become one of my close friends in secondary school life. cool huh. She came in just about a few minutes after I thought of never having friends again. haha..

15 yrs old, I got to sec3. By then I had just gotten to the best class. But the subjects were superly tough. I remember that my parents could not understand my situation initially as I'm the first child. So they didn't know why I was not doing well then. It seemed dim, it also almost was as if I won't make it past sec3 to get to sec4. But I did. Most of us in my class did. And some of those things that I thought I would never understand are now my favourite topics. Eg: the mole concept. hahaha. But then of course, there are quite a number of things I've forgotten from sec school work.

16 yrs old, just before my O levels, my dad said to me that I won't even be able to make it to ITE. I guess, I was quite discouraged then. But I remember working hard. And actually, this was the year where I came to truly believe in Jesus Christ as Lord and Saviour. I graduated from secondary school with really good grades and made it to a polytechnic. Today I'm in university studying pharmacy. And my parents are also amazing people today.. having been changed in heart by God, they're not as pessimistic as in the past.

There's lots of times where things seem bad and dark. It has only been by the grace of God that I've made it to this day at where I am. There's much more ahead to face. I'm going to start my final year soon. It'll be tough. That I know. But great things will happen too! :)

Praise God for all that's past, and all that's to come!

And I thank God too, for the colourful life I've had. ;)

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